Sunday, January 21, 2007

Half-way Through

This sounds mundane and very non-original, but I can't really believe the year is half over...and 4 weeks until February vacation. On the other hand, I have covered so much ground both in curriculum and experiences with my classroom.

At this time in the year, and my life, I mainly feel the overwhelming sense that I have so much started and not enough finished. I long to finish something and feel very frustrated that nothing is coming close to completion. I love lists, so here it goes:
Corner Cupboard
Aaron's Chair
Shelf for bedroom
Closet Organizing
Misc Sewing projects
b+j greene Clothing Line
Solar System Model CSL Project
Term 2 Grading
Altered Book #1
Misc Stencils
Dad Greene's website
Grant Applications for classroom technology
Reading Dragonriders of Pern
Exercise Routine
Cooking
Cleaning
Hanging artwork after living here for 1.5 years
Planning Outdoor Club events
Planning Field Trips
Putting away Christmas decorations

Too many projects...too many responsibilities. No wonder I slept for 14 hours last night. At least I didn't make myself feel guilty for sleeping. That's when I just hate my projects...because everyone knows I need to sleep more. And hate never got anything accomplished.

Feeling unresolved is also just a product of January. I never like January. January and February seem to last forever and, curiously, I always end up feeling the most dizzy during these months. And I hate my nose always being cold like it is right now. Perhaps I need to just learn to love these months and the incompleteness of my projects...and maybe the hating is actually the source, not the product of this misery. Yeah, like I'll ever start loving darkness and freezing temperatures. I'll keep dreaming of the Dominican Republic and time will carry me into spring. Hallelujah!

2 comments:

Carol Soules said...

That's a long list.... sounds like you need: a vacation week where you sleep, relax and do projects/create art, and also a house with a woodstove and windows :-)

Jess said...

It's true. Woodstove, windows, and a WARM workshop and I would probably make it through unscathed. I almost froze to death working in the basement yesterday.